This is the place where I deposit my various philosophical theories
about World, humankind and the reason of existence itself, from its
early beginnings till the very end.
Billions of years ago there was a miniature globe of highly
concentrated matter. It exploded, threw matter into the universe, and
today's galaxies were created.
I believe in the theory of the universe being a three-dimensional loop.
Which means that, if someone started travelling into a straight
direction (not on earth, of course, but on a galactic scale), he would,
after an unimaginably long way, arrive at the point where he started
his journey. A more simple approach to this can be made by thinking of
a two-dimensional loop, or the letter "O". No matter where you begin
drawing it, in the end, you will always return to the point where you
began. It would be far easier to understand if the human mind was able
to extend a two-dimensional loop onto the third plane, but
unfortunately, it can not.
End of the Universe
Some scientists claim the universe of today to be hundreds of billions
of years old, others think it to be as young as two or even less
billion years. The average of all theories is somewhere near fourteen,
but it can never be accurate and therefore it doesn't matter.
What does matter, though, is its future. Everything with a beginning
also has an end - that end being matter floating so far away from the
center, so distant from other matter, that all energy is lost. The
universe is expanding. The longer it exists, the more it will expand,
the less energy there will be. Suns will burn out and turn into novas,
light will dissipate, gravity will fade, and ultimate entropy will be
reached. The chaos that is now will become order again. And there won't
be life anymore, nowhere.
How long it will take for World to become that way? Longer than our
lives. Far longer than humanity's existence. Billions of years will
have to pass until then.
The Solar System
4 billion years ago, a globe made of spacedust started to form,
attracted by the gravity of another, bigger sphere, namely the Sun.
Attracted: Gravity is a distortion in the space-time-continuum and one
of the four elemental forces. The other three are Electromagnetic
Force, Strong Force and Weak Force. Probably all four are just forms of
one super-force made of energy strings, but the Global Unification
Theory is not fully researched yet.
Back to our home planet:
This spacedust-globe took 4 billion years to cool down, and after
cooling down, life somehow began to spread on its surface. There are
three theories concerning the beginnings of life which seem plausible:
1. An asteroid carrying some primitive forms of life crashed into our
2. Aliens brought primitive beings to our planet.
3. Life evolved here.
If these are right, and if yes, which one, is not known and
probably never will be.
It took the primitive monozoa millions of years to become multicellular
animals. Over time even they got more and more complex, until they no
longer were simple mechanic constructions but the highly complex,
self-sustaining computer-like entities they are now.
After a very long time of evolution, the newly-evolved complex entities
formed the species we know today as dinosaurs. Shortly after followed
the meteor catastrophe and wiped the planet clean, providing space for
a new species of lifeforms - mammals.
Capable of highly complex thinking and able to develop advanced social
skills, mammals now ruled the planet, and the dinosaurs were dying out.
And then came the first man, resembling more of an ape than the Homo
Sapiens we know today, and raised the first spear against his prey.
Evolution is nothing but a game. Only the strongest genes survive, get
mixed with other strong ones and become even stronger. That was
Nature's theory behind this. Then the human brain started growing, we
developed new ways of communication, learned to build weapons, breed
animals, and in the end we had an own civilization.
But human evolution unfortunately found its end here, somewhere between
the beginning of the Stone Age and present time.
Why? Natural selection, the basic principle of evolution, got
overridden by civilization. Everyone was able to survive. No matter
whether they were sick, genetically damaged, weak or not intelligent
enough, they had the option of breeding. It surely was better for the
weak, as they were now allowed to have normal lives, but for the
universal gene pool it proved to be a major catastrophe. As time
passed, it got more and more contaminated. Some people think of genetic
research or eugenics as the modern solution, others prefer and preach
ethnic cleansing, but I claim them wrong - none of that is ever going
to be sufficient to restart a process as great as evolution. For that,
something far more radical would have to be done: humanity would have
to be completely wiped off the planet, with only a minimal amount of
survivors left, and no tools to aid them.
In the end, our civilization will be destroyed, this way or another. It
doesn't really matter whether it happens by degeneration or
Life and its purpose
What is life?
Life is the effort of a highly advanced biological entity to maintain
its functional ability
That's the basic definition. Everything else - emotions, memories,
values, all of it is just a by-product of having to keep an unnaturally
complex creature alive.
What is the purpose of life?
Life has no purpose.
One could say it is the purpose of life to breed and to stay alive for
as long as possible, but these are nothing more than instincts.
Of course there are people who don't want to accept this. In most
religions, a reason for our presence is given - a reason believers can
believe in, a reason the weaker ones can cling on to, a reason they can
use to express themselves.
Yet above all of these mystical-magical, non-scientific theories there
is one dark truth nobody dares to admit:
We were born because in our mothers' wombs the atoms were aligned the
way they were. We live because our minds keep us alive. We breed
because our instincts tell us to. We grow and age because our bodies
are made the way they are. We die because some of our parts stop
working or because some micro-organisms kill us to feed on our corpses.
In some religions (Hinduism, Islam) people believe in predestination.
Belief is nice, but not nice enough for me.
First, the atoms.
Every single object consists of atoms. Atom is a Greek word and means
Atoms are not indivisible. They consist of even smaller parts,
positively-charged protons, neutrons without charge, and
negatively-charged electrons in their outer hulls.
But even these smaller parts consist of smaller objects called quarks,
except the electrons. They are indivisible. Indivisible to today's
means of science, at least.
These quarks and electrons, among other basic particles, float in space
without constraints, and without a drive of their own. Therefore, force
carrier particles have to interact with them to make them move the way
The different configurations of protons, neutrons and electrons result
in the presence of over a hundred different types of atoms, each with
their own chemical attributes. They either attach themselves to each
other or cause attached molecules to fall apart, and they can, with
today's technology, be manipulated to act the way we want them.
The way an atom will react with another type of atom is always the
same. Therefore, if somebody knew the position of every single atom in
the entire universe, one could calculate all reactions and the
resulting reactions and the reactions after that, and predict the
future without errors.
...If It Was That Easy.
The force carrier particles, which are responsible for moving
particles, stand in close connection to quanta. Quanta are tiny bundles
of energy and can do just about anything they want. They can be where
they are supposed to be, or they can not be. And there is no entity
definable by the laws of physics which can actually predict quanta.
Their location, route and speed cannot be traced exactly, only the
probability of an event - which means that only one of multiple
probable events can take place in one universe. The others are
But in other universes, they are not.
According to my (philosophical, not scientific) theory, we have an
(almost?) infinite number of parallel universes, one for every
difference in quantum events. If a specific quantum event occurs in our
universe, it doesn't in others, but again, in different ones, it does.
After all, not only that quantum event has a variable outcome, but also
billions of others. Every different outcome produces a new parallel
universe. Every parallel universe is unique.
...which doesn't deny the possibility of predestination, because OUR
version of the universe is just as unique as the other parallel
universes. We cannot influence the quantum flow in our world. Actually,
we cannot even fully understand it. Not even more "primitive", less
reality-abstract scientific operations like molecular deconstruction
can be performed by mankind.
How could someone influence the molecules' molecules, if he doesn't
even understand the molecules themselves?
Who then has the ability to influence the quantum flow?
Nothing can predict quanta, with the exception of a God.
Throughout human history, every time when there was something mankind
could not understand, it was explained by attributing it to the
workings of a superior power. In this case, it is no different, and
that superior power's name is Fatum.
Fatum is a latin word and means "fate".
It is a name chosen by me for a creature, the existence of which
neither provable nor deniable by what we know today as technology.
My logic tells me that, if there is an arranging of parallel universes,
then some entity has got to be the one responsible for it happening the
way it does. This "creature" has neither anything to do with the
Christian God, nor with mankind or animals, not even with planets,
stars or atoms, just quanta and their distribution over the different
coexistant realities. It is, in some way, omniscient and omnipotent,
but even then it cannot work miracles in our world, cannot influence
our lives or do anything we would be able to understand. But it does
exist, that I do believe in. Otherwise we wouldn't be here.
I do believe in magic, in ghosts and in the Forces of the Dark.
But why would a man of science like me do such a thing?
Because, even if the probability of it is astronomically low, it is
possible for wonders to happen. Based on the quantum variation and
parallel universe theory, we could be living in a universe where it is
not impossible for non-physical events to occur. Maybe, we have been
assigned a combination of probabilities by Fatum in which some rogue
quanta have the task to make some atoms appear right before me, in this
very moment, and form a face out of nothing, only to make it vanish a
second later and leave me wondering as to what exactly that apparition
had been trying to tell me. That said, I'm still waiting, and hoping,
for something supernatural to come my way, because until now, there
hasn't been anything in my life unexplainable by regular science.
2c. The Lack of Free Will
"A man can do as he
will, but not will as he will"
After so many theories concerning atoms and quanta, I'll leave
microcosmic world and enter the human mind, getting closer to that
which matters most - namely the machine that drives us all.
Our brain is nothing a piece of meat, highly advanced, but still
similar to our arms, legs, heart and every other body part. It consists
of atoms, like everything else on this world.
It serves as a processor for influence perceived from World via
built-in senses like hearing, seeing, smelling or feeling something,
and as a distributor of commands to each body part passed on through
tiny electrical discharges in the nervous system.
Still, it is so much more than that. Everything we know is stored in
it, everything we are, everything we strive for. It is our central
place of administration, and our home. But as it is nothing but a
highly complex machine, it can only react in pre-defined ways.
Some weeks before birth, humans start to perceive influence from the
outside world. They learn, feel, and develop unique
All of this serves just one main purpose: Self-sustainment. The human
race has no genetic memory passed on from parents to children, and
therefore newly born members have to learn everything needed for
survival on their own.
To be precise, it is not completely true that humans have no genetic
memory. They do have basic instincts, emotions and deeply-hidden
personal traits which are stored in the DNA, but these are far from
being complete copies of the parents' personalities and knowledge.
If humans had free will, that would mean they could think whatever they
wanted. And here's the problem. "Whatever they wanted" - what, exactly,
does it depend on what they want?
"Every influence perceived" is the answer. One cannot think of anything
without being triggered. Even the most individualistic, revolutionary
and strange ideas are triggered and so belong not to their creator, but
to their environment. There is nothing which comes out of nothing. Thus,
"true" free will is impossible.
But there is a substitute for it, called personality or programming. I
use both words, because they share the same meaning, except that one is
used for living beings, while the other is used in connection with
computers and man-made devices.
Every member of our race unchangeably follows the path of their
programming. The path itself undergoes constant change by World, but
nothing can keep a human being or any other living creature from
walking this particular path. There are no other options.
The Personality / The Programming
The way people react to a given situation is summarized by the
Personality is that which makes every living being unique. It contains
information on the individual, on how they react to all kinds of
influence, typical behavioral patterns, memories and everything else.
Influence and and reaction triggers can originate from the outside
(Someone says "Hello!", I say "Hello!") or the inside (I'm hungry,
therefore I eat).
The basic concept closely resembles a computer programming.
IF X THEN Y
IF I'm hungry THEN I eat
The problem, of course, lies in the inability to interface technology
and mind. But even if that one was solved, there would still be another
hindrance on re-programming a mind: complexity. The computers we use
today contain hundreds of millions of transistors. An average human
brain has more than 15 billion nerve cells, with nerve cell technology
being completely different, and far more advanced than
Life as an organic computer?
Today, it has become quite clear to science that human thinking is the
result of electronic activity taking place inside the brain. Emotions
have been reduced to chemical substances, thoughts to tiny discharges,
and life to a mechanical process. The human race has developed the
technology needed to understand itself. It's just belief that keeps
mankind from accepting it, and hope.
To destroy this hope would mean to replace our civilization with an
army of robots, worthless and insignificant, and spiritually dead.
Therefore, people naive enough not to believe what I say are definitely
superior, as they are those who keep humanity intact as a collective of
lifeforms instead of turning it into a robot farm.
Computers were designed to be react to their users, who would trigger
them by typing in commands.
In the case of living beings, there is no user but the sum of all outer
and inner influences.
If we do something, we are forced to do it, either by an object, a
creature acting independently from ourselves or by something inside our
brain "making us do it". Outer and inner triggers.
All our actions are forced by outer and inner influence.
Which means that it is not me who is responsible for everything I do,
but all the people and things I have met in my whole life.
...which would excuse serial killers and discredit cultural
benefactors, making the entire civilization one huge entity of
cooperating creatures. That is the truth; sooner or later, everybody
will have to face it.
The Insignificance of Life
Life is meaningless.
This thought process consists of five steps.
1. The path of the atoms
is predetermined by the quanta keeping them
2. The path of life is
predetermined by the personality / the
3. Living beings are
forced to follow their path.
4. In the end there is
nothing but death, which is completely
insignificant to World.
5. The atoms will not
stop following their path, even after life is
Life has no true meaning and no
significance to the universe.
Sometimes, when I close my eyes, I feel as if I was moving away from
this place. My thoughts come free from their earthly bonds, and I see
the shape of my true existence, the silhouette of the secret behind
life itself, of the divine beyond. Black and white, shades of grey.
Then, fear starts to build up in my mind. Fear of turning insane if I
ventured farther into my dream, farther towards the ultimate truth. It
is here that I always open my eyes and convince myself of this being
normal, being a natural instinct designed to keep me alive.
But sometimes, I ask myself - is it really just an instinct?
The Outside World
I am the Seeker, one of seven billion humans populating the planet
Earth. My point of view towards all I see is objective, always trying
to view the things through a neutral spectacor's eyes. I can understand
the good, understand the evil, understand priests and understand serial
killers, understand everything. I know why the leaves are green and why
the earth is brown, and despite all the knowledge - or maybe right
because of it, I am unable find true happiness and contentment in a
life similar to others'.
As long as they are alone, people can be quite interesting to talk to.
Conversations can even be mutually entertaining, provided that there
are no more than two participants and the topic is interesting for
Problems start arising when there are more than two people involved,
because then, the social programming starts to work, disabling peoples'
private, true personalities. The more there are, the worse they are -
until, in the end, socialisation becomes a struggle to reach an always
higher position on the hierarchical ladder.
And it is because of this that I seldom meet with or talk to more than
one person at a time. Playing these twisted social games is not my
wish, it makes me feel bad about myself and worse about the others.
I am part of no regular society. The reason for that is simple - in
every society, there are rules, and there are leaders.
I am unwilling to accept the mostly of socialization, and I
also do not respect any creature more than another, only because of its
My denial of social rules does not mean denial of democratic laws,
these are two separate things. My views do not conflict with laws, as
most laws are there for a logical and understandable reason. What it
does conflict with are the "unwritten laws" of society, which, to my
mind, are still far too oppressing and primitive.
Harsh accusations? Especially considering the last few decades' social
reforms and rebellions, modern society is often thought of as an
ultimate playground without any "rules" left. Everything, it seems, is
allowed - alcohol and drugs, violence, sexuality, decadence have taken
And that, exaclty, is my problem. Things really have changed. But what
has not, and what should have, is the basic thinking of humans, or
better: of society. Maybe, if people were a little bit less hedonistic,
less aggressive, maybe if they wouldn't prefer senseless enjoyment over
balance, then everything would be alright. But it isn't. Their eternal
desire to possess more and more and more is now impossible to fulfill.
Society's become corrupted. That is where my problem lies, that is what
I rebel against. Social behavior is what makes the noble creatures that
are humans become primitive offenders, while making them victims of the
hierarchically superior at the same time.
How this problem could be resolved in a peaceful matter? I do not know.
Nobody knows, else a solution would have already been found. What I
know is that I will never be at peace with society. And that being a
loner certainly has its advantages.
"The world is a
dangerous place to live, not because of the people who
are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it."
The Human Empire can be divided into two regions - places for the rich,
and places for the poor.
Places for the rich are few and little, and they contain only a very
small part of the Earth's population. These are the countries of the
USA, Japan, and the new European Union. And while the countries
themselves may be rich rich, even here, in these industrialized parts
of the world, poverty is slowly taking over - unemployment rates are
increasing, class difference is enormous, and immigration from poor
countries has become a major problem. The system of their world - our
world - has already began to crumble apart.
And then, there are the poor places of Earth. The origin of cheap food
and even cheaper electronics, with a few giant companies from the rich
world exploiting and killing the population by offering them food in
exchange for slave labor. When there is talk about them, they are
called Africa, Asia and Southern America - but most of the time people
don't say these names, don't mention them, don't think of them and
pretend not to know the truth.
World is one huge beauty
On the one hand, there is nature, made beautiful by its complexity and
perfection. On the other hand, there are the creations of mankind,
aesthetic either because of its powerful contrast to nature or because
of its close resemblance of that which we perceive as natural.
Architecture, art, technology, industry - all these things have an
aspect of beauty to them which is often ignored by World's inhabitants.
Every living creature is
Even a human is a wonder, probably even the biggest wonder in
existence, but also the worst nightmare to its own kind. The beauty of
men and women healthy and untainted by sickness is absolutely
undeniable, it is something so many strive for, but only so few are
able to reach.
Beauty can be found in so many places - still, most people cannot see
it, as they are blinded by their own quest for material values,
recognition or acceptance.
You can live as if World was
Heaven, and you can live as if World was
to the universe it does not matter.
It's only you who will suffer if you keep your eyes closed. So open
them, and embrace Existence, for only once will you get the chance to
live it in this unique way!